5 days into SouthBeach and happy as all be...this is the diet that addresses what my body in particular needs. AS someone who is always a few pounds and a few years away from diabetes I know I need to watch the crap I'm eating in a different way. For me, not all foods are equal. Limiting my carbs and lowering sugar to as close to zero as possible will make my pancreas a heck of a lot happier.
As for appetite? What appetite? I find that if I haven't eaten dinner by 6 PM then I am really no longer hungry. The longer without food the less hungry I am. I know wacky, but I'm sure it has to do with the amount of insulin in my bloodstream.
So tonight I'm driving home from a long meeting and I'm snacking on seaweed crisps and a cheese stick and the rest of this primal strip seitan jerky. I'm thinking: 'there's dinner". I did have a sugarfree ice cream thing from a new brand called Clemmy's (sugarfree ice cream things are ok on SB, but I only plan to have one every other day at most). Then when I got home I had some sliced turkey on lettuce and a 1/3 avacado. Now it's tea time.
Oh, I'm 2 kilos lighter: 77 down to 75 now. :D
What did I eat today:
black bean burger with laughing cow wedge
eggplant/tofu dish
seitan strip
two cheese sticks
glass of almond/coconut milk
seaweed crisps
Clemmy's sugar free ice cream
turkey on salad with olives and avacado
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
Saturday, September 8, 2012
First Day of SB and I want to fill my gob!!!!!
I had to take control. It was like a leaky roof. That hole was only gonna get bigger. Except for me that hole was the foothold that diabetes was going to have if I gained any more weight. Everytime you take in carbs the body is producing insulin. I was taking in copious carbs, thus copious insulin. All that insulin adds fat to the waistline, but worse that that, it starts slowly changing the cellular structure of the body.
I do not want to have to take medications.
I don't want to say at age 60, "if only I knew then....." I have to stop it now.
I'm not hungry right now, but I am longing to stuff my gob with something. That's pretty much the habit I fell into this past year. Lots of stuffing of the face and why? I don't even know. Mostly a bad habit.
Today I had two eggs scrambled with tomato, feta cheese, and veggie sausage. Later I had a salad with some turkey meat on it and 2 cheese sticks. My snack was some kale chips.
So for nine days I won't be drinking. I finally think I am getting it with regards to alcohol. If it isn't gourmet, it isn't worth it (same thing for dessert). I bought a wine I used to like and found it tasted cheap and vinegary. As for beer. My new favorite was Shock Top wheat IPA with coriander and orange peel. It's like this special treat to have it and after two that is totally all you want.
But for nine days, no carbs.
Wish me luck!
I do not want to have to take medications.
I don't want to say at age 60, "if only I knew then....." I have to stop it now.
I'm not hungry right now, but I am longing to stuff my gob with something. That's pretty much the habit I fell into this past year. Lots of stuffing of the face and why? I don't even know. Mostly a bad habit.
Today I had two eggs scrambled with tomato, feta cheese, and veggie sausage. Later I had a salad with some turkey meat on it and 2 cheese sticks. My snack was some kale chips.
So for nine days I won't be drinking. I finally think I am getting it with regards to alcohol. If it isn't gourmet, it isn't worth it (same thing for dessert). I bought a wine I used to like and found it tasted cheap and vinegary. As for beer. My new favorite was Shock Top wheat IPA with coriander and orange peel. It's like this special treat to have it and after two that is totally all you want.
But for nine days, no carbs.
Wish me luck!
Monday, August 20, 2012
50 pounds overweight
Technically I am more like 30 pounds overweight, but the scale this morning said 172. That's no lie.
What to do? Well, let's see, I have been alternating days of rollerblading with days of walking/running 4 miles. So, I put in place some movement and fitness. Frankly, this is a big part of the plan. I am watching how people age, specifically my 77 year old uncle, who had been active as a farmer years ago, but who is now extremely sedentary. He got pneumonia and then after a few days in the hospital he was sent to a rehab center to gain strength. He falls easily and is easily fatigued by walking. I contrast this to one of the women I golf with who is also 77. She is out playing 9 holes as easily as any of us. She works part time at the race track.
If I live to be 77 I want to have her lifestyle. It's really come to me that what I do with the next 20 years will decide how I live the 20 after that.
I have been steadily gaining weight over the past year because I am eating treats daily rather than as treats. I eat an amazing quantity of junk food. A good example would be that yesterday, although I ate a nice bit of the Fazer chocolate Mervi sent, later that day I also ate a York peppermint patty. One treat once or twice a week is plenty. Two in one day is gluttonous. Given my habits, I'm actually surprised I haven't gained more weight. However, my body is at it's largest. When I hit this size (it's only happened once before) I hit "WAKE UP" call button. There really is no way I can let myself get any bigger. I am straddling the line between overweight and obese. I am part of a statistic of the overweight American. I don't want either.
I think the last time I was this weight might have been in 2002 when my dad was ill. I remember him telling me that I needed to lose weight.
A few months ago I realized walking 3 miles made me tired. That was scary and I got moving again. Now walking 6 miles makes me tired, but I could still do more. I've signed up for a 5K race at the end of September. It takes me about 40-45 minutes to do that distance now because I am also walking a big chunk of it. I know with continued work I can get it down to about 30 minutes. I'm really excited about getting in the swing of things again. While skating today I saw several people running and was excited because I had done mine yesterday.
And what about my skating? OMG! I love it! I have to blame my new found love of hockey for skating. I kept thinking about the motion of skating and how enjoyable it would be. Finally, last week, I bought a nice pair of rollerblades. I also got the elbow, knee, and wrist pads. I stood on them at the store and stayed upright, so I knew I could do this. Well, I guess I had faith in myself. My mother was always a natural at ice skating. When I was little she tried to teach me. It was horrible. I was all wobbly and it was ludicrous. Later, I would ice skate again a little less spastically, but my ankles were still a mess.
I think over the years I realized how my legs work. I have pondered things like posture, gait, whether I tilt in or out, how placement of my feet affects my running. I think I had to get smarter and older to be ready.
So I have now been 5 times on the amazing paved paths at the Crossings Park. Each time has been better than the last. My shins no longer ache. I'm skating with a more fluid movement which means I also am getting the skate part down and am more natural at it. Today I practiced using the brake. This made me feel more confident on the declines (which are few and quite gentle). I got passed by this women my age who said great job and another woman gave me an affirming smile. It's really great how kind people can be to you.
I'm happy it is only August. That means I have months to keep up my skating and get better at it. It also means months of conditioning for 5K races. I think that this activity and more mindfulness in my eating will cause weight loss to happen naturally. I'd like that as much as I'd like to grow old in a healthy and active way.
What to do? Well, let's see, I have been alternating days of rollerblading with days of walking/running 4 miles. So, I put in place some movement and fitness. Frankly, this is a big part of the plan. I am watching how people age, specifically my 77 year old uncle, who had been active as a farmer years ago, but who is now extremely sedentary. He got pneumonia and then after a few days in the hospital he was sent to a rehab center to gain strength. He falls easily and is easily fatigued by walking. I contrast this to one of the women I golf with who is also 77. She is out playing 9 holes as easily as any of us. She works part time at the race track.
If I live to be 77 I want to have her lifestyle. It's really come to me that what I do with the next 20 years will decide how I live the 20 after that.
I have been steadily gaining weight over the past year because I am eating treats daily rather than as treats. I eat an amazing quantity of junk food. A good example would be that yesterday, although I ate a nice bit of the Fazer chocolate Mervi sent, later that day I also ate a York peppermint patty. One treat once or twice a week is plenty. Two in one day is gluttonous. Given my habits, I'm actually surprised I haven't gained more weight. However, my body is at it's largest. When I hit this size (it's only happened once before) I hit "WAKE UP" call button. There really is no way I can let myself get any bigger. I am straddling the line between overweight and obese. I am part of a statistic of the overweight American. I don't want either.
I think the last time I was this weight might have been in 2002 when my dad was ill. I remember him telling me that I needed to lose weight.
A few months ago I realized walking 3 miles made me tired. That was scary and I got moving again. Now walking 6 miles makes me tired, but I could still do more. I've signed up for a 5K race at the end of September. It takes me about 40-45 minutes to do that distance now because I am also walking a big chunk of it. I know with continued work I can get it down to about 30 minutes. I'm really excited about getting in the swing of things again. While skating today I saw several people running and was excited because I had done mine yesterday.
And what about my skating? OMG! I love it! I have to blame my new found love of hockey for skating. I kept thinking about the motion of skating and how enjoyable it would be. Finally, last week, I bought a nice pair of rollerblades. I also got the elbow, knee, and wrist pads. I stood on them at the store and stayed upright, so I knew I could do this. Well, I guess I had faith in myself. My mother was always a natural at ice skating. When I was little she tried to teach me. It was horrible. I was all wobbly and it was ludicrous. Later, I would ice skate again a little less spastically, but my ankles were still a mess.
I think over the years I realized how my legs work. I have pondered things like posture, gait, whether I tilt in or out, how placement of my feet affects my running. I think I had to get smarter and older to be ready.
So I have now been 5 times on the amazing paved paths at the Crossings Park. Each time has been better than the last. My shins no longer ache. I'm skating with a more fluid movement which means I also am getting the skate part down and am more natural at it. Today I practiced using the brake. This made me feel more confident on the declines (which are few and quite gentle). I got passed by this women my age who said great job and another woman gave me an affirming smile. It's really great how kind people can be to you.
I'm happy it is only August. That means I have months to keep up my skating and get better at it. It also means months of conditioning for 5K races. I think that this activity and more mindfulness in my eating will cause weight loss to happen naturally. I'd like that as much as I'd like to grow old in a healthy and active way.
Thursday, February 9, 2012
Still plodding along
God continues to grant miracles! I have had some "denial" phases to my weight loss lately. I was angry and annoyed over the point values for some of my favorite healthy foods and that brought out the stubborn girl in me. So what do I do? I track differently or make excuses to go off plan!
Even though I am messing up, I still must be eating less because I am down another 1.5 pounds this week. So at the WW scale I started at 168.2 and am now 160.2 . So obviously I want to be in the 150's next meeting!!!!
Yesterday I ran and liked it. It wasn't overly tiring. I just ran and walked ran and walked, did some stairs, stopped and did jumping jacks and kept moving for 30 minutes. It was more like play than a workout.
This morning I tried on two pairs of jeans. One I'd forgotten about and they were at the bottom of the drawer. They were a size 10 from White House Black Market and they fit perfectly. I'll be wearing those to work tomorrow! The other pair was an old favorite, size 8 "Seven" jeans. They can't be zipped up yet. They really have to work to cover my ample "ass"ets!!!! I think that with 10 pounds more they will look great like the size 10 does now!
So I have a 10 pound goal in sight. My birthday might be too soon to hit that goal, but I think i will try.
"All Glory Comes from Daring to Begin"
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
I lost weight I lost weight!
So I've been doing WW since January 17. At the initial weigh in I was 168.6 on her scale. At the week one weigh in I was 162.6!!! Yay for me!!!!!
It was really affirming that I could own this. But really I think that the best thing WW does for me is make me check everything I eat. It's fits well with my OCD ness that sometimes sprouts. I just love having "tight control" over everything that I eat!!!
I ate perfectly every day, but at cards I did have some tortilla chips and Mary's infamous bean dip. I ate the tiniest bite of brownie for dessert. On Tuesday, I really wasn't into eating and had 8 points left over. Today, I have one point left over.
Now I need to get the exercise on!
At my Fit or Fat class today I discovered I am 37% fat! Holy shit! 37% of my 162 is just fat! It should be 18 to 25 % fat.
If I'm that bad, what is it for the morbidly obese? Scary. So definitely one of my goals is to lose fat and lower that percentage.
It was really affirming that I could own this. But really I think that the best thing WW does for me is make me check everything I eat. It's fits well with my OCD ness that sometimes sprouts. I just love having "tight control" over everything that I eat!!!
I ate perfectly every day, but at cards I did have some tortilla chips and Mary's infamous bean dip. I ate the tiniest bite of brownie for dessert. On Tuesday, I really wasn't into eating and had 8 points left over. Today, I have one point left over.
Now I need to get the exercise on!
At my Fit or Fat class today I discovered I am 37% fat! Holy shit! 37% of my 162 is just fat! It should be 18 to 25 % fat.
If I'm that bad, what is it for the morbidly obese? Scary. So definitely one of my goals is to lose fat and lower that percentage.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Eating Clean
I'm a little excited about this. I got "Clean Eating for Dummies" from the library yesterday. I like the idea of lowering the amount of processed foods in my diet. I don't think I eat a ton of processed goods and I've always made a conscience effort to shop the outside perimeter of the grocery store. But I do eat processed goods with fillers and unknown additives and that's not helping me.
Lately I've been thinking about the whole idea of the acidity in our bodies and those nasty free radicals. I want to lessen this because I think they are poisons that lead to aging, tendinitis and all sorts of physical difficulties.
I bought a nice bunch of collards yesterday. I love fresh collards even though they take a bit to steam, they are so nutritious. I make them with white beans (I have them soaking on the stove...not canned) and israeli couscous. LOVE this recipe! It'll last me a few days, but if there is enough I could freeze some. We'll see. I also bought broccoli. I have to be careful with it because I get a horrible intestinal reaction with broccoli if it is raw. But I was hoping to make a healthy quiche with it for easy breakfasts this week! :)
Lately I've been thinking about the whole idea of the acidity in our bodies and those nasty free radicals. I want to lessen this because I think they are poisons that lead to aging, tendinitis and all sorts of physical difficulties.
I bought a nice bunch of collards yesterday. I love fresh collards even though they take a bit to steam, they are so nutritious. I make them with white beans (I have them soaking on the stove...not canned) and israeli couscous. LOVE this recipe! It'll last me a few days, but if there is enough I could freeze some. We'll see. I also bought broccoli. I have to be careful with it because I get a horrible intestinal reaction with broccoli if it is raw. But I was hoping to make a healthy quiche with it for easy breakfasts this week! :)
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Sad Dream
So I had this dream last night. It was nothing explicit, as my dreams never are, but it featured this guy, Jensen Ackles.
He walked up behind me, hips lightly swaying as he leaned in for a kiss. His hand went gently to my hip and he asked me to go upstairs with him. I turned around then, surprised he'd see me that way, and suddenly self-conscious. The thoughts in my mind rolling quickly through desire and then fear. I didn't want him to see me naked. I was embarrassed and ashamed of my body. Not much more happened in the dream before the scene faded away.
I was embarrassed and ashamed of my body to the point where I said no to enjoyment. :(
I know, Ackles is quite a specimen, and most women might faint if he asked them to have sex, but I don't think that's the point of the dream or this post. My point is, I've gotten to the point where I don't like myself and what I look like, and it's affecting my choices. Quite sad.
He walked up behind me, hips lightly swaying as he leaned in for a kiss. His hand went gently to my hip and he asked me to go upstairs with him. I turned around then, surprised he'd see me that way, and suddenly self-conscious. The thoughts in my mind rolling quickly through desire and then fear. I didn't want him to see me naked. I was embarrassed and ashamed of my body. Not much more happened in the dream before the scene faded away.
I was embarrassed and ashamed of my body to the point where I said no to enjoyment. :(
I know, Ackles is quite a specimen, and most women might faint if he asked them to have sex, but I don't think that's the point of the dream or this post. My point is, I've gotten to the point where I don't like myself and what I look like, and it's affecting my choices. Quite sad.
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