Still Going!

I'm still taking care of myself!  22 days of not drinking!!!  YAY!  I'm tracking food via My Fitness Pal, and I am moving almost every day.  I've gone from 74 kilos to 71.  I think I will feel really relieved once I get back to the 60's.  I know that at 68 there are over a dozen clothing articles that I will be able to wear comfortably.  It'll be like going on a shopping trip without spending the money.

I was looking at pictures the other day of me in California in 2006.  That was my skinny year, when I got to 130 (61 kilo) and could just walk into a store, pick up a pair of size 6 pants and know that they'd fit.  I wasn't bone thin, honestly, I think I'd need to be 110 to have my ribs show, but I was smooth.  There was no back fat, muffin top, side boob bulge, etc......

I don't know why I was making that face!  LOL!  I think it is so funny that I still look tall or huge next to this woman and I am only 5'4"!  Weird!  It's been that way for my whole adult life (sincce 14 actually) always looking large next to women who were short.  And I'm not even tall!!!!

Do I want to be this size again?  Yes, this was a common weight for me for much of my 20's.  I graduated college at this weight.  It's a healthy weight to be.  I think anything under 140 or 65 is going to be in the healthy range and then it is up to me to eat well and move daily.

So that's the goal!

A couple of apps

Two apps that seem fun are My Fitness Pal and MapMyWalk!

I especially liked mapping my walk today.  I felt accomplished.  It not only checked the route, it calculate my mph speed and average speed.  I walked 4.1 miles in 65 minutes.  I was pleased at the time.

As I walked I tried to let go of the day and the to-do lists, and even the story making in my head.  I really just wanted to be in the moment.  I did hear the "peepers" today!!!!  They seem late, but better late than never.  It's spring and it feels good.

Maybe the infrequencies of my posts reflect the infrequencies of dieting!

Hi, I'm here again!  Seriously!  I don't get it do I?  I don't get that I need to eat well all the time and that I need to watch the treats and pretty much stop the alcohol.  I don't get it.  I must think that I am 17.  I must think that it won't happen to me, but it might, and it can, and it will.  I haven't had a medical wake up call....yet...but is that what I am waiting for?  I'm 43 and my body is not as resilient as it was at 17 or even 30.  It's rusting, and I need to stop this rust or slow it down.

Yes, we grow older and our bodies wear out, but what old age do I wish to face?  Do I want to be the person who takes meds?  Hell no!  Do I want to be the person who can't go anywhere because of fatigue?  Hell no!  Do I want cancer or diabetes because I led a poor lifestyle?  The answer is still HELL NO!!!!!

Recently, my digestion felt sluggish.  I felt like there was pressure in my duodenum and a little acid reflux.  Of course, this part of me is always saying esophageal cancer (which is kinda rare) and worrying about that.  See, here is the problem.  Doctors pound on you to not smoke.  Last physical and I think that the nurse asked six times if I smoked.  But only once do they ask if you drink.  In the 1950's doctors advocated smoking. Not now, now it is demonized.  I just saw an ad last night with this woman who had a stoma and she was 52.  Nine years older than me!!!!  That's not much.  But drinking, not demonized at all (yes for DUI, but I'm talking consumption).

 We probably don't even know the effects of alcohol fully, either that, or we are lying to ourselves.  I'm not talking that Friday night glass of wine.  I'm talking daily consumption of 2 or more drinks.

So I've been worried or concerned or down right paranoid and I think this has been good for me.  Maybe I am getting the message, even if I have to create the message myself.